Sunday, June 16, 2013

Father's Day

I thought about what I wanted to say today. The truth of the matter is that I really wish I could just sleep this day away. My breath is cut and my heart hurts.

Many of you know how difficult this day is for me. I found my father two years ago on Father's Day. As a child I never got to buy him an ugly tie, or a mug that says DAD on it. Never got to give him a card made out of construction paper in school.  Last year was the first time in my life that I got to buy a Father's Day card. That would be the one and only time I got to buy such a card. The one and only time I got to call up my dad and wish him a Happy Father's Day. In that conversation I tried to be upbeat and positive - for him. We spoke about how 'next year' we would spend the day together, though I knew in my heart that his days were numbered.

It has now been ten months since he left this earth. Ten months since my heart was ripped open. I still struggle to breathe at times. This day will always - always be bitter-sweet for me ...right now it is mostly bitter.

If you are fortunate to have you dad in your life - treasure your time with him.
If you are a dad, let your children know how much you love and adore them.

Happy Father's Day!