I once read an article about living your life the way in which you would want to be remembered after you're gone. This got me to thinking about how we live our lives, how I live my life, and how I would want to be remembered after I leave this place. I think some people are misunderstood. Often times misguided. Hardened by life's harsh lessons. How many times have you heard someone say that people just don't 'get' them? I watched a bio recently and the subject of the bio said: "If you truly knew me......" Clearly we cannot be so transparent that strangers would know what is in our heart. But I think that we can live a life that reflects the overall picture of what is happening inside.
As human beings, we are not perfect. In fact, God made us imperfect, with the given ability to choose. And we each have times in our lives where we wish we could have a 'do over'. Unfortunately life does not afford such luxuries. What it does offer are new beginnings. Opportunities to choose a different path. A different way of living. A different way of presenting yourself to the world. You cannot un-ring a bell, but you can pick up a different one.
With age, hopefully, comes maturity, and with maturity, hopefully, comes new understanding and better choices. Inherently, your heart at 40 is what it was when you were 5. Though how you choose to represent your heart does not always display itself in the best light. Certainly I have not always made the best choices in my life. But I have learned lessons, I have grown into my heart over the past couple of decades. And I hope to be able to continue to do so, as I really believe that our true understanding of self, is limited by our age and experience. I did not have the knowledge at twenty that I do today. Equally, I am certain that twenty years from now - I will be much more knowledgeable than I am today.
With each day, with each experience, with each action, you are writing your life's resume. What you do today will be read tomorrow. The good news is that if you have been living a life you are not proud of, you have time to change that! You are here today - and can use today as a fresh page to write upon. You do have the luxury of change. You have the opportunity to choose how you wish to example yourself through your life, through your character. To grow integrity. To be the kind of person you can be proud of. Remember that getting older is not an option - growing into your heart - is.
For myself, I would hope that after I leave this place, I would be remembered as a loving, caring, intelligent, compassionate, strong, generous, woman of great faith. A woman who loved God dearly, who adored her daughter, treasured family, and valued her friends. A woman who would give the shirt off of her back for someone in need. A woman who loved animals, respected nature, adored trees. One who yearned for knowledge, loved to write, loved to teach, loved to cook - and would wholeheartedly welcome guests to her table.
I can only pray that as God shepherds my life, I may continue to live in this way. That life's hard knocks would not bitter me - as witnessed in my younger years. That God will continue to bless me with the opportunities to help others, and afford me the ability to do so. That when I am gone, my resume will be read well, under the light of the Lord.