I remember how I could not wait to hit my 40's. They were to be my most fantastic decade yet!! With age comes wisdom, so I was not naive in thinking that the 40's would be smooth sailing, but I knew in my soul that they would be life-changing.
I turned 40 on July 31st 2008.
* My daughter moved into her own place.
and discovering who Lori is. I have to say that so far, I like her! :)
* A life-long search had come to an end. I had a Dad! Praise God!
I had two Aunties, Two beautiful sisters, 3 handsome nephews and 3
beautiful nieces. Praise God!
Lord knows the road was anything but smooth. I knew it wouldn't be.
Some I am close with. Some I am not as close to as I would love
to be and hope to be with time.
But I am known by them - and I know them. That is more than I
ever had. I am so thankful for this blessing.
November 1st/2011 - My father began to take ill.
* I still remember the first day I heard the word prostate -
and I just knew. In my gut - In my soul - I knew this would be
the beginning of the end. I had found my father - just in time
to helplessly watch him die a long, agonizing death.
* Although I am still working on my truest gratitude for finding him,
before it was too late. It is so difficult and gut-wrenching to be
on this ride. I do thank God that I was blessed with time
to know him before he was called back home.
* I was diagnosed with stage 1 colon cancer, and pre-colon cancer,
discovered through a colonoscopy I had done.
One + One makes Two!! Really?????
I am now nearly 8 months in remission! Praise God!
* Many member of my Father's family are positive for a mutation
of the BRCA2 gene. Thus elevating their risk of developing
breast, ovarian or prostate cancers. My Aunt and cousin have
had mastectomies, my grandmother who lost her battle with
several cancers. My Dad is suffering in his battle with several cancers.
* I took the Genetic Testing. Two actually, 1 for the BRCA2
and 1 for the P-53,
which they threw in for good measure due to my personal two cancers.
* BRCA2 came back NEGATIVE!! Praise God!
* This means my daughter will not need to be tested! Praise God!
July 31st 2012
So, here we are. I am 44 years old today! All in all it has been quite the interesting decade. Froth with blessings and heartache. As such is life.
Today I am with heavy heart as my Dad's time is drawing near. I pray he knows my love for him and my extreme gratitude to have been able to hold him, hug him, kiss him, look in to his eyes. To call him Dad.
Today I will try to celebrate me. I will count my blessings. I will be thankful for family and friends who take time out of their life to recognize me on this day. Knowing each of them are a blessing in my life.
I will also remember a lesson that I was taught some time ago....
And so, I will live this lesson and also honour my Dad's wish for me;
"I want you to keep moving forward into your future, with the power of God, who gives us strength."
With the words of my Earthly Father and the lessons of my Heavenly father, I will journey forward under HIS light.