Sunday, April 15, 2012

Granny ~

Twenty-two years ago today my beloved Granny left this life. I just cannot believe it has been so long. Natasha was only 3 weeks old. I was 21.

Time stands still for no one.

Granny, I love you more than words can say. I miss you every hour of every day. I speak to you all of the time. Can you hear me? Can you feel my love?

Your life was full - and yet you left us way too soon!!

You survived a war - when the rest of your entire family was lost in the war. You brought mom and Aunt Nat to Canada on your own. Surviving Hurricane Hazel on that ship. You worked your fingers to the bones in factories - for decades. You were the strongest woman I know. You were the matriarch of our family. You were the spirit of our family. And we have just not been the same without you.

I hear the songs we use to sing together. And I smile.

I see the places we use to go together. And I smile.

I still remember your phone number when I was 5 years old!

I miss you Granny! So very much! I know you are in a better place. I know you are smiling down upon us. I know you see us and walk with us. I know a part of you lives on in each of us.

Am I selfish because I feel like it isn't enough? Because I want to hug you! I want to feel your love wrapped around me! You were one of the few people on this earth who "got me".

Even as I look upon this picture. The way you loved me - even at 7 months old. The way I loved you then .... and now!!

I think it is interesting that on April 15th, 1990 - Easter Sunday ... you left this life.

Today - April 15th, 2012 - is Orthodox Easter Sunday.

Today is your day Granny!!

Today I will light candles for you. I will think of you. And I will smile through the tears as I remember our time together.

I love you!!